Sitting alone worrying
My mind a mess of jumbled thoughts
Not knowing what my future holds
Everything overwhelming me
Something in nothing
In a never-ending cycle I’m caught
Terrified of what my future holds
Anxiously sitting silently
Head spinning whilst sitting quietly
The weight of anxiety crushing me
Feeling my life is all for nought
Crying at what my future holds
Cannot concentrate on things
Heart beating faster now
The hardest battle I’ve ever fought
Scared of what my future holds
A poem by Ricky
When depression strikes it often feels as if the demons in the darkest reaches of your mind have surfaced simply to torture you. Self doubt creeps in and then the whole world feels bleak and that you have nowhere to turn. I’ll often find that even as a middle aged man the thoughts from this poem enter my thoughts at an all too alarming rate.
Although humans as a species like to be prepared and have a plan in place, some of the most interesting people I know still don’t have life’s journey planned out.
Worrying about the future, does it actually achieve anything?
Life is a journey and as with any journey there will be obstacles. There will be parts of the journey that you enjoy and parts that you don’t. The trick is to not worry about what is ahead of you, live life in the moment and take each day as it comes. Try not to fixate on something that is happening in the future as generally the thing that you are worrying about is never as bad as the worry makes you feel. Oh, and always be nice to people as you never know where they are in their journey.
“The main thing that you have to remember on this journey is, just be nice to everyone and always smile.”
It’s 6 am and the alarm starts to sound
Your first thought is “Damn” and your head starts to pound
Pick up your phone, turn off the bell
Your heart turns to stone, start feeling unwell
Realisation hits, another day facing hell
Waking up in the morning your mind filled with dread
Still tired and yawning as you get out of bed
Wanting to hide from the day up ahead
So anxious inside “Can’t I curl up instead?”
It’s a school day remember? The kids need to be fed
Your stomach feels queasy, your head’s in a spin
The struggle’s not easy, don’t know where to begin
The voice in your brain, adding stress, adding strain
It’s happening again, feels like you’re going insane
Every day is like this, it’s a recurring theme
Something amiss, like a nightmarish dream
Feeling alone, no-one there on your team
You let out a moan, no strength for a scream
No energy to hurry with this stress and this strain
The cause of this worry is anxiety again
Every minute the same with no respite in sight
Your will being drained, feel like giving up on the fight
Feeling weak, feeling pain, losing every ounce of your might
So what do you do? Do you go back to bed?
Or is today the day when you push forward instead?
Some days it would be far easier to just stay in bed, pull up the covers and just hide away. I’ve quite often felt this way. The pressures of everyday life pile up insurmountably and will weigh you down. But only if you let them. I know it isn’t easy to pick yourself up, brush yourself down and keep pushing forward in the face of pressure and adversity. If life was easy then surely everybody would be a success? (I’ll come to defining success in a future post). The trick is to try not to let these issues overtake your daily life. If you can accomplish this then your are on your way to beating worry.
Everybody has their own problems to deal with, some unique to that person, however the majority of worries boil down to a similar theme
What other people have/think/are doing
Each is a valid issue, however if there is one thing I have learned in my time on planet Earth it is this…
Worrying doesn’t solve a thing!
This is true, all worry does is causes stress and uses up excess energy. This is energy that would be better placed elsewhere, doing something proactive. Now of course it’s easy to say to someone “Stop worrying.” But if it is in a person’s nature to worry then inevitably they will. Trust me I know, I’ve been there. It’s just I have learned to focus that worry into positive energy. Instead of sitting around letting the thought consume me I now know to concentrate on something else. Whether that be spending time with my kids, reading a book or going metal detecting (my new passion) doesn’t matter. Just doing something to alleviate the worry is the important thing. That’s what I am trying to press home, not letting the worry consume you, as once it’s done that then it has won.
So my advice today regarding worry is simple…
When you feel worry starting to take hold try and do something else as soon as you are able, don’t allow it to consume you. Turn the negativity around, get creative, get outside or get involved in something. Just doing something away from the worry should help.
Every moment spent worrying is a moment spent not enjoying the pleasures that life can bring. Now as far as anyone knows we only have one life, it is up to us to choose whether we are going to waste this chance or give our all and embrace it.
“Whatever is going to happen will happen, whether we worry or not.”
― Ana Monnar